We Are Moving Along!!!!!!!

OOhhh wow we finally got our calendar and my appointments have started already. I just did my blood draw to check my thyroid levels and my NC said that if it was level she'll create our claendar well she did better than that she sent it to my caseworker with my agency and it was waiting on me in my email. I am soo stoked to start cycling again i have been dieting really well I do'nt have any major weight issues and I am on my prenatal vitamins.

I am praying for healthy pregnancy and I am hoping for twins and yes some might saywhy. It's for my IP's I have carried twins before and I know what all it entails and yes I am ready to go through it all again hard to understand I know but I do and IM wants that too. i am hoping that my IM lets herself fall in love with every step we make I do understand after so much dissappoints why she is holding off. I will be cautiously happy for her andd I will get giddy enough for the both of us.

On Monday I go for my Saline Sonogram and vaginal ultrasound. Our transfer date is April 16th. and I can't wait.

When it comes to my thyroid issues most of it is hormonal my periods are heavier and thy last an extra day. from-3-4 days my body temperature has been regulated my hair stopped or at least slowed down with the thinning and depression is also a known symptom but so far I have'nt expierenced it.

well that's it for now I am counting down the days utnil i stick my butt to get this cycle started.

A Few Speedbujmps along the way....

So I know that it's been awhile and here we go again. So let me just rewind on the last two months per se. We found out that my ovaries were too surpressed hence why it took so long for my period to return. We fixed that we adjusted my thyroid meds reduced the dosage and what do you know within three days of taken the new dosage I got my Period!!!! Yayy!!! So we were sure that we were going to be able to make February turns out that was a bust so then we were told March but get this no meds delivered, no calendar and no date set for the transfer what do you mean. Then the RE goes on medical leave and we have no idea what that means I start a new pack of BCP's on Tuesday(Feb 26.) and expierence breakthrough bleeding oh well its to be expected. So after calling and reaching out to everyone here is our new positin:

RE will be out because he hurt his back his partner will take over everything from monitoring to transfer, We will be in a new office We are waiting on the other Office to give us a date thats available so we can co-ordinate our schedules there are a total of six people to line up dates with aint this a hectic bunch. Soooo I can only hope we get this ship up and running sometimg soon it's driving me batty

Still waiting...

It's been officially two months since the miscarriage. I am back to normal or should I say my pre-pregnancy self all except for one thing my period still has yet to come arrgh.. but my RE is not worried he wants my body to return to itself naturally. Ok he's the expert I am guessing that he has a timeline as to when he'll induce so now it's just exercise lose weight which is coming along beautifully.

That's teh physical side of things on the more bonding side my Im has decided to step back and not attend visits or ultrasounds this go around she still wants email updates but not the task of everything else I found out that our recent loss was number 11 for them. it broke my heart while I was aware that it mor than 5 losses I had no idea it was that many. I am a little saddened but do understand the emotional toll it has taken on her. So my agency director and my case co-ordinator have stepped in to fill the void and take care of anything I might need and my hubby is making oplans to attned all appointments with me. I was looking for a more intimate journey this time but that will have to come on its own and in its own time so for now we just wait and get ready to start again.

We lost the tiny babe!!!

I am sorry it's been so long since I checked in but I had to deal with the loss of my surrobabe at 8 weeks. It was deveastating to me and my husband but all too familiar to my IP's. We found out at our soon to be last appointment with our RE and it was noticeable as soon as the image came up in the ultrasound. The Re's voice only confirmed what we all saw. The air was thick with silence and my heart broke for us all, it shook me to the point of being inconsolable and I was glad to have my husband with me, considering it was a last minute change of plans it hurt. It happened recently probably over the weekend as the babe was still measuring right ontime with where we were. I had to have a D&C almost immediately the RE did'nt think it was a good idea for us to wait for my body to expell our surrobabe so I went from mourning a loss to getting ready to preapre for surgery in two days time. That was November 5th, and now after everything we are waiting........

I spoke with my IM Monday and realized how frightened she was that I was going to back out because of our loss which shocked but I realized that it had nothing to do with me. The surrogate before did it to them so the path seemed familiar. But I assured I am ready to try again and believe with all my heart that we will have success straight into delivery. So now I am just waitng to start Birth Control Pills again and look forward  to a february transfer

Onto beta testing and POAS

So after 5 days on bedrest I had to test I could not resist I took out the test strips my friend Jenny had sent me and I did I snuck one on friday too early negative then I did one on Sunday morning and pow it was there almost instantly I could not believe it I took a pic and sent it to my closest friends and sure enough it was there for everyone to see congrats poured in but I had to sit on it I had been given the green light to test but to not reveal the outcome to my IM. So I jumped up and down with my agency director and friends and tried to wait cautiously until beta testing which wasnt until 10/4 and wouldnt you know we had to hit a snafu I had made an appointment with a lab that the clinic did not use and had to switch locations ahhh so frustrating and without my internet access find the lab was hell. To top it off I didnt know if they accepted walkins spoke with my agency director SD and she said they did but to get there as early as possible ok got that fixed then bam could not get the order off of my cell phone. Ok my IVF coordinator told me she could fax the order if I had trouble getting ok another problem soleved. I found the lab with the help of my hubby LR and he came with me for my blood draw. I got the agency to fax the order and breathed a sigh of relief!!!

So the results were supposed to be in from 3pm and we couldntn receive it because the lab's machine was broken Are you freakin kidding me really what kind of lab was this so we had to come to terms with we will not get the results until possibly Friday.On about my day pick up kids, brave traffic and make dinner after 7pm Thursday October 3 2012 Dr. G calls me personally

BFP!!!!!! and 1st Ultrasound

And so we have it I cheated this time I tested before and I got a BFP @ 4dpt and then I tested again @ 5dpt. I was sooo stoked hubby could'nt believe it he didnt want me to test because he thought that it would jinx our rituals but I did and sent out the pics to at least 15 ladies to get that unbelievable comfirmation. On Wed Oct 3 20102 my first beta was 200 wow high and my repeat beta was 1100 whoohoo stoked and couldnt believe it my RE even went out on a limb to suggest twins which is something he never does.

We had our first US at 5wks 6 days pg I wish the clinic had waited longer at least until I was 6 weeks plus but I know IP's were anxious and we saw the sac and the beginning of the fetal pole. IF was eleated that it was a singleton and IM wanted twins jusry is still out on that until our next ultrasound Novemebr 5th. pregnancy symptoms still very strong at my next US I will be 8 weeks plus and I can't wait to see it all- I want to see what has my tempermental,exahausted,angry hungry and soo sleppy I wn't forget to add the smells and cigarette smoke drive me crazy lol until next time I promise to update sooner

Mishaps on transfer day

Hello its been awhile my bum is just beginning sore after all the shots. Transfer day was hectic hubby could'nt make it because our car had been stolen the following night. So I went at it alone on the train I wa sooo happy that I had left out very early and would'nt you know it this would be the day that there was a delay there I was stuck in between 2 zones and was absolutely helpless to it. I sent text messsgaes out but they were stuck far apart from me, finally at 10:50 the train was cleared to resume and I was off. Hit the train to the metro shuttle to the transit bus and finally to the clinic with 45 mins to spare !!!!!

 I was cleared to get a bite to eat and I did the juicest hamburger and fries ever IKR so I make it back into the office and as soon as I sit down the acupuncturist calls me in  and wants to get started right away> I am hustled off and there is another glitch my bladder may not be filled enoguh so she makes me drink a 32 oz glass of water and continues with the needles half way through my IM KC comes in and she has been looking for me I am sooo relaxed she was worried that I wouldnt make it there in time and was pleased and relieved to know I was at the clinic the whole while. We go into the mini-operating room and have to wait 5 more mins for the water in my stomach to flow to my bladder and it does its surreal as Doc calls in the embryologist with the embryos to implant. and to watch it on the screen was nothing short of breathtaking.

it was short and sweet but so worth it I moved into the recovery room to allow more time for the sedative to wear off, It was homeward bound afterthat straight to bed and on bedrest for the remainder of the week to allow the the embies to take root. And the difficult TWO WEEK WAIT!!!!