I am sorry it's been so long since I checked in but I had to deal with the loss of my surrobabe at 8 weeks. It was deveastating to me and my husband but all too familiar to my IP's. We found out at our soon to be last appointment with our RE and it was noticeable as soon as the image came up in the ultrasound. The Re's voice only confirmed what we all saw. The air was thick with silence and my heart broke for us all, it shook me to the point of being inconsolable and I was glad to have my husband with me, considering it was a last minute change of plans it hurt. It happened recently probably over the weekend as the babe was still measuring right ontime with where we were. I had to have a D&C almost immediately the RE did'nt think it was a good idea for us to wait for my body to expell our surrobabe so I went from mourning a loss to getting ready to preapre for surgery in two days time. That was November 5th, and now after everything we are waiting........
I spoke with my IM Monday and realized how frightened she was that I was going to back out because of our loss which shocked but I realized that it had nothing to do with me. The surrogate before did it to them so the path seemed familiar. But I assured I am ready to try again and believe with all my heart that we will have success straight into delivery. So now I am just waitng to start Birth Control Pills again and look forward to a february transfer
