Wednesday, November 28, 2012

We lost the tiny babe!!!

I am sorry it's been so long since I checked in but I had to deal with the loss of my surrobabe at 8 weeks. It was deveastating to me and my husband but all too familiar to my IP's. We found out at our soon to be last appointment with our RE and it was noticeable as soon as the image came up in the ultrasound. The Re's voice only confirmed what we all saw. The air was thick with silence and my heart broke for us all, it shook me to the point of being inconsolable and I was glad to have my husband with me, considering it was a last minute change of plans it hurt. It happened recently probably over the weekend as the babe was still measuring right ontime with where we were. I had to have a D&C almost immediately the RE did'nt think it was a good idea for us to wait for my body to expell our surrobabe so I went from mourning a loss to getting ready to preapre for surgery in two days time. That was November 5th, and now after everything we are waiting........

I spoke with my IM Monday and realized how frightened she was that I was going to back out because of our loss which shocked but I realized that it had nothing to do with me. The surrogate before did it to them so the path seemed familiar. But I assured I am ready to try again and believe with all my heart that we will have success straight into delivery. So now I am just waitng to start Birth Control Pills again and look forward  to a february transfer

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Onto beta testing and POAS

So after 5 days on bedrest I had to test I could not resist I took out the test strips my friend Jenny had sent me and I did I snuck one on friday too early negative then I did one on Sunday morning and pow it was there almost instantly I could not believe it I took a pic and sent it to my closest friends and sure enough it was there for everyone to see congrats poured in but I had to sit on it I had been given the green light to test but to not reveal the outcome to my IM. So I jumped up and down with my agency director and friends and tried to wait cautiously until beta testing which wasnt until 10/4 and wouldnt you know we had to hit a snafu I had made an appointment with a lab that the clinic did not use and had to switch locations ahhh so frustrating and without my internet access find the lab was hell. To top it off I didnt know if they accepted walkins spoke with my agency director SD and she said they did but to get there as early as possible ok got that fixed then bam could not get the order off of my cell phone. Ok my IVF coordinator told me she could fax the order if I had trouble getting ok another problem soleved. I found the lab with the help of my hubby LR and he came with me for my blood draw. I got the agency to fax the order and breathed a sigh of relief!!!

So the results were supposed to be in from 3pm and we couldntn receive it because the lab's machine was broken Are you freakin kidding me really what kind of lab was this so we had to come to terms with we will not get the results until possibly Friday.On about my day pick up kids, brave traffic and make dinner after 7pm Thursday October 3 2012 Dr. G calls me personally

BFP!!!!!! and 1st Ultrasound

And so we have it I cheated this time I tested before and I got a BFP @ 4dpt and then I tested again @ 5dpt. I was sooo stoked hubby could'nt believe it he didnt want me to test because he thought that it would jinx our rituals but I did and sent out the pics to at least 15 ladies to get that unbelievable comfirmation. On Wed Oct 3 20102 my first beta was 200 wow high and my repeat beta was 1100 whoohoo stoked and couldnt believe it my RE even went out on a limb to suggest twins which is something he never does.

We had our first US at 5wks 6 days pg I wish the clinic had waited longer at least until I was 6 weeks plus but I know IP's were anxious and we saw the sac and the beginning of the fetal pole. IF was eleated that it was a singleton and IM wanted twins jusry is still out on that until our next ultrasound Novemebr 5th. pregnancy symptoms still very strong at my next US I will be 8 weeks plus and I can't wait to see it all- I want to see what has my tempermental,exahausted,angry hungry and soo sleppy I wn't forget to add the smells and cigarette smoke drive me crazy lol until next time I promise to update sooner

Friday, October 5, 2012

Mishaps on transfer day

Hello its been awhile my bum is just beginning sore after all the shots. Transfer day was hectic hubby could'nt make it because our car had been stolen the following night. So I went at it alone on the train I wa sooo happy that I had left out very early and would'nt you know it this would be the day that there was a delay there I was stuck in between 2 zones and was absolutely helpless to it. I sent text messsgaes out but they were stuck far apart from me, finally at 10:50 the train was cleared to resume and I was off. Hit the train to the metro shuttle to the transit bus and finally to the clinic with 45 mins to spare !!!!!

 I was cleared to get a bite to eat and I did the juicest hamburger and fries ever IKR so I make it back into the office and as soon as I sit down the acupuncturist calls me in  and wants to get started right away> I am hustled off and there is another glitch my bladder may not be filled enoguh so she makes me drink a 32 oz glass of water and continues with the needles half way through my IM KC comes in and she has been looking for me I am sooo relaxed she was worried that I wouldnt make it there in time and was pleased and relieved to know I was at the clinic the whole while. We go into the mini-operating room and have to wait 5 more mins for the water in my stomach to flow to my bladder and it does its surreal as Doc calls in the embryologist with the embryos to implant. and to watch it on the screen was nothing short of breathtaking.

it was short and sweet but so worth it I moved into the recovery room to allow more time for the sedative to wear off, It was homeward bound afterthat straight to bed and on bedrest for the remainder of the week to allow the the embies to take root. And the difficult TWO WEEK WAIT!!!!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

A long time Coming

It has been awhile for those of you who have been following my blog I apologize my life has gotten super busy. So my thyroid levels went way down and we were given the green light to move forward that was back in July, but we had missed the mark. I wasnt too upset the RE knows what he is doing and I was glad we waited a few extra months to get started. I feel better and got to lose a few more pounds. I was able to deal with summer camps a new school for my youngest and 3 tooth extractions for my oldest, that if I wa scycling would hjave been rather stressful.

 I got my calendar  Monday morning and was super glad but one glitch they wanted to use Estradiol Vaginal tablets and they didnt work the first time we used them so I call the Nurse Co-Ordinator and she has to consult with the doc so hopefully w eget this sorted out by August 31st which is when I start my meds. With a transfer date of Septmeber 24th. which is turning out to be a very busy month with dental visits, PTA and screenings almost back-to-back here's to success and stickybabydust

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

On the Move Again

It's been one hell of a long wait. When I last checked in I was put on Synthroid because my Thyroid levels were too high. My regimen was one tablet every morning for six weeks well today I am in my 5th week I have an appointment for tomorrow (Thursday 12). I am anxious and excited I want my levels to be low my IM wants my levels to be low I am prayerful and hopeful. I also realize that wait we had was the typical wait that occurs in a surrogacy after all we jumped over all the hurdles, medical screening,psych eval contract negotiations etc. so here's to tomorrow and good news! 0

Saturday, May 26, 2012

And we have a date! !!!

Its been awhile and so much has happened I finally met my IP's in person we being my husband myself and my agency owner /coordinator. They were so open and honest about the pain they have endured trying to have iiia family. The miscarriages and heart iibreak with no definite answer as to why.I. appreciated that it gave me something more than I ever had in my previous journeys an insight into my intended mother's mind her feelings and emotions. On Thursday May 24th 2012 I went into the RE's office for my full work up blood and my vaginal ultrasound got a new script for my prenatals and my new date is July 12@noon a few days from June 19th which happens to be hubby's bday next step start meds

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Waiting........

It's the weekend we finally hit the waiting stage of the journey, it's expected we have bypassed every other obstacle, we did not have to wait for screening (my medical records were update to date) got my pap smear before My RE has been the same for all of my jouneys. It just happens to coincide with them joining with another clinic. So this is our waiting period hopefully it won't be too long....

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

One Step Closer..........

So after few snafus and attorneys going on vacation we have a signed and notarized contract. We have a face2face planned for MOTHER'S DAY WEEKEND. I am overwhelmed that our process has sped by and so blessed my IP's chose me. We will be starting meds soon- injections in the toosh a strict protocol to follow a transfer in a sterile room allon the way to make a baby maybe two.

I forgot to mention she would like twins as much as I do

Friday, April 20, 2012

Cotract Phase

Ahh we have reached the awkard phase- THE CONTRACT PHASE this is where it get dicey but I believe that if you are clear on what both parties are comfortable with there will be few delays.Advice read read read and if there is something you are not comfortable with say. My contract has been reviewed so I wait its a friday here's to the weekend.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Intro- Fair Bump Mother

Hello it's been awhile since I have put my thoughts on paper even if it's a virtual one. Iam in the contrc phase of my surrogate journey. Ok let me start over My name is Drea and I am a surrogate mother. I have done this twice and eachjouy has been different bt the outcome the same a loving couple who were told they would never become parents were, the meds the injections, mood swings heartburn came to a single moment, a first breath a cry and multiple tears a beautiful life and for some two beautiful lives as in my last journey.


I have spoken to my IP's (Intended Parents) once over the phone and I already  know that this journey is going to be special and I want to document it. They are professionals and young K&C or Kansas City my nickname for them. My cant carry a pregnancy to term so she found me The  Fairy Bump Mother