long overdue update!!!!

I am so sorry to keep my loyal followers in the dark. Let's see at last post betas were great we had an ultrasound and was released from the RE to our OBGYN. We have had two visits thus far the initial and a regular  I will also be visiting a MFS- maternal fetal specialist which is norm for any woman over 35. IM came to our second visit and got to meet our OBGYN I was ecstatic she was a bundle of nerves but so happy at the end and we got to the little potatoes heart beat she officially got the green light to relax and enjoy her pregnancy---yes this is her Pregnancy and I want her to feel as connected to this as possible. She made a pledge to be in attendance to as many visits as possible and I thank her for that, she's super busy and I understand when she can't.

 She got a shock when she saw me I was huge there was no mistaking that I was growing a little miracle just for her. I say her a lot because this is her first child that had developed so far she has had too many heart breaks more than most of us could bear but she didn't give up. She thinks I am the strong one but she doesn't know that I am learning so much from her and the depth of her strength. I will not trivialize surrogacy, but will acknowledge that the IP's we are matched with give you such a deep sense of love and compassion and endurance that just astounds those on the outside looking in.

I am working on my tablet but will upload pics of us soon. We are headed to our second trimester ultrasound and I have cut my hair so can't wait to share :-)

PS- I felt the potato move from 15 weeks whoo hoo

Released from the RE and beyond......

It's been awhile but the MSv has been getting to me my last post was about my beta numbers well we have one healthy little bean growing and it super and amazing. Yes this is my 3rd journey but each one is different and teh challenges and speed bumps make each one that mor memorable as the time flies.

I had my first OBGYN appoitnment and even though my IP's couldn't make it, it was still awesome to hear the little one's heartbeat the most calming sound that a mother surrogate or our own can hear:)

And the numbers keep rising

The numbers are in 9dpt.41,13dpt.427,third and final beta 1600we are onto our first ultrasound . IP, s are breathing a sigh of relief but still pretty much guarded. Nausea has set in and boobs itch like crazy count down is on

UPATE!!!!! Transfer and Beta

I have been terible at updating but this surrogacy is a very emotional one for me and my IP's the starts the stops the maybes and no next month we did it we jumped over every hurdle that life threw at us.

After all of this would'nt be just like fate to have my IP's Director and Liasion Caseworker out of town when we transfer April 15th. So lucky seeing as it was a few days after my oldest son's b-day and he is a very lucky lad. My last journey we transfered on his birthday and conceieved twins.
 It was not ideal to not have anyone with me but it was ok I had my hubby with me and I was ok I was calm and I think the valium and accupuncture had alot to do with it. Im needed a break from the stress and we understood. We came home hubby put me to bed and I slept a full 8 hours awesome and I was a couch potato for the whole weekend lol Dr. Hubby's instructions.

Today was my first beta yes we are pregnant and drumroll numbers are :41 whooho Beta number 2 Monday 29th 2013

We Are Moving Along!!!!!!!

OOhhh wow we finally got our calendar and my appointments have started already. I just did my blood draw to check my thyroid levels and my NC said that if it was level she'll create our claendar well she did better than that she sent it to my caseworker with my agency and it was waiting on me in my email. I am soo stoked to start cycling again i have been dieting really well I do'nt have any major weight issues and I am on my prenatal vitamins.

I am praying for healthy pregnancy and I am hoping for twins and yes some might saywhy. It's for my IP's I have carried twins before and I know what all it entails and yes I am ready to go through it all again hard to understand I know but I do and IM wants that too. i am hoping that my IM lets herself fall in love with every step we make I do understand after so much dissappoints why she is holding off. I will be cautiously happy for her andd I will get giddy enough for the both of us.

On Monday I go for my Saline Sonogram and vaginal ultrasound. Our transfer date is April 16th. and I can't wait.

When it comes to my thyroid issues most of it is hormonal my periods are heavier and thy last an extra day. from-3-4 days my body temperature has been regulated my hair stopped or at least slowed down with the thinning and depression is also a known symptom but so far I have'nt expierenced it.

well that's it for now I am counting down the days utnil i stick my butt to get this cycle started.

A Few Speedbujmps along the way....

So I know that it's been awhile and here we go again. So let me just rewind on the last two months per se. We found out that my ovaries were too surpressed hence why it took so long for my period to return. We fixed that we adjusted my thyroid meds reduced the dosage and what do you know within three days of taken the new dosage I got my Period!!!! Yayy!!! So we were sure that we were going to be able to make February turns out that was a bust so then we were told March but get this no meds delivered, no calendar and no date set for the transfer what do you mean. Then the RE goes on medical leave and we have no idea what that means I start a new pack of BCP's on Tuesday(Feb 26.) and expierence breakthrough bleeding oh well its to be expected. So after calling and reaching out to everyone here is our new positin:

RE will be out because he hurt his back his partner will take over everything from monitoring to transfer, We will be in a new office We are waiting on the other Office to give us a date thats available so we can co-ordinate our schedules there are a total of six people to line up dates with aint this a hectic bunch. Soooo I can only hope we get this ship up and running sometimg soon it's driving me batty

Still waiting...

It's been officially two months since the miscarriage. I am back to normal or should I say my pre-pregnancy self all except for one thing my period still has yet to come arrgh.. but my RE is not worried he wants my body to return to itself naturally. Ok he's the expert I am guessing that he has a timeline as to when he'll induce so now it's just exercise lose weight which is coming along beautifully.

That's teh physical side of things on the more bonding side my Im has decided to step back and not attend visits or ultrasounds this go around she still wants email updates but not the task of everything else I found out that our recent loss was number 11 for them. it broke my heart while I was aware that it mor than 5 losses I had no idea it was that many. I am a little saddened but do understand the emotional toll it has taken on her. So my agency director and my case co-ordinator have stepped in to fill the void and take care of anything I might need and my hubby is making oplans to attned all appointments with me. I was looking for a more intimate journey this time but that will have to come on its own and in its own time so for now we just wait and get ready to start again.